What i want to become? :)

You know i really tired by being like people. I don’t want to do the things what people  are doing all over the world . Up to now i have decided or settled in my mind. That i have to live like what my parents, relatives and society taught me. But, today i got these thought, do i really like to live like what they told? Will i get happiness or satisfaction for my whole life, if I live like what they are to enforcing on me? The temporally answer given by mind is No. No i don’t wanna watch video for whole life, No i don’t want live under pressure of people to whom i supposed to work in future  so that, i can earn money, No i really want to work for them for now. First up all i want to work for Myself And if get time then for others.

Then i thought about, what i really like do in my life? Answers are below:

I want to earn only sustainable amount of Money. For that i have to stop thinking about people around me that, what they will think. That, i am looser,coward who don’t want to take responsibilities in  his life. But, i will just say go to hell all of them who thinks about me like that cause i got solution on this from my  second answer to what i like do in my life?

I wants to stay in my village and on my farm build a Eco friendly home which will be more sustainable for me  in your language you  can say it Earthship which is exciting word for it.

I always wanted to explore myself and this universe. But, i didn’t realize it yet.

I want to read books of what people has written by their thoughts , i am not talking about novels, philosophy i got it very much. Now i don’t want it anymore. J  i want to read beyond that. What is reason of existence of this universe? Why we are here, is there any purpose behind this or we are just here randomly?

And on and on...

I don’t know, will i get that much straight to do it? or not but i am just typing..

  

   

  

Last sentence on Deathbed

Have you ever think in your mind. What will be the last sentence u'll say, at the very last Moment of Death. i know you have never think about it. but, if you want certain motivation in your life. You don't need to Read motivational books,videos just what you need to do is?, U have to ask some Question to yourself, to your inner core. You'll probably in trouble when people talk like inner self,core,mind. Actually where is this part. it's nowhere first up all you have to find  it. By doing some Practice like Concentrating on your own breathing, thinking about who am i? means is am i a just biological chemical formation or beyond that. What is there inside me Which enables me to think, it can't be a Chemical only there is something go and search for it. when you done with it.
then, come to the next the above Question. then, there is more possibility of you to stick with your own motivation. what you got from the Questions like above.

And while Doing those things keep one thing in your Mind. If you're not Physical healthy u can't even take one step towards it. so for Doing this i have Taken oath to myself . From today onwards. i am going to Quite some bad habits which stopping me do it.

The conclusion is You don't need to find Motivation in Outer World, It's Inside You just Go and Search for It.!!   

Don't Worry.!

Don't worry and dn't regret abt anything in ur Life.! bcoz, everything happens for ur wellness in this universe.! if you really wanna b worry,
Worry about why der r billions n trillions of Stars n Galaxies in this ‪‎Universe‬. Why we r here, is der any Purpose for our Existence..?  :)

post 2(my life)

i am feeling good reason behind my feeling is, i am sharing my self publically and hiddenly first time. my english is somewhat decent but, i don't worried about that at all coz i am sure that, i can write my thoughts and questions clearly to understand.

whatever, basically i completed my graduation from a average university. i lived in village till my graduation completion. now i am living a city where my mind disturb by traffic,pollution and so many freak people who alwyz tries to force der thoughts on you. but, i have speedy internet connection. from my childhood i got thoughts,dreams and questions about too many strange things which can't be find anywhere even on google also :) and those thoughts always makes me curious about them not as much that, i have to leave everything and follow them. may b i am not that much courageous or i have fear for them. currently my mind is empty. i have them but, couldn't write them cause my surrounding is some what disturbing. i am unable to write them write now. i'll write them at night time cause all peoples thoughts are somewhat peaceful or we can say they are rested in peace for that time :)

My First post

i have started this blog for me. but, if you are here your Welcome. u know i got too many questions and thoughts every night before falling asleep those can be never answered by anyone as i think so. those are very mind folding questions. from the day i encountered with  internet i started searching for them and i found too many related with this but, unsatisfied.! i wanted to write them. so that i can rewind them again cause i don't want to lose them for my whole life.  so i found this google blog for free. from now onwards i going to post them here so that, i can save them as well share with people around the word cause if i found someone like me with those question in his mind, i love discuss with them.